Even if l came back after that, what use would it be?
You'd be happy... everyone would've been happy
But for how long? Someone or the other would've pointed a finger at me, Apa
And you know what the outcome would've been. l knew too
Everyone, even in these remote parts knows what was happening in...
the so-called most modern of cities. How people were being hounded...
how the women and the old were being tormented...
in the name of terrorism laws
l tried a lot to get back to you. l've been to Bombay too
But l couldn't make it to home
l missed you
l remember Ammi...
Then l visualized myself peering through...
the barred window of a police van ... and you, staring helplessly
l couldn't bear it! Whatever l've done is right. This is my way. l was happy
Because l kept the truth to myself
Were it not for Murad Khan, l don't know what'd happen to me
Who's Murad Khan?
Met him in Bombay
After him!
Don't be afraid
We're fellow travelers
l wanted you and Ammi to give me up for dead
What l had forgotten is how stubborn you can be
When my comrades told me that you had come looking for me...
l prayed. l prayed that you wouldn't find me
But none of my prayers have ever been heard
D'you know what someone who deserts two helpless women is called?
Coward
l've no fancies about becoming a hero. There are heroes only in stories
What happened afterwards?
He brought me here
At first, they laughed at me. Then they kindled an insanity...
they brought out a frustration that was bottled up inside me
l now know that life doesn't have to be lived in helplessness
There is a purpose
These arms, ammunitions... one murder for another...
if this is your purpose in life, what can l say?
You have decided about your life. - l haven't decided anything, Apa
lt's life that has sentenced me
lf you put up with repression and injustice in silence...
if you can bear to see us denigrated...
if you can watch our mothers and sisters being raped...
then this place isn't for you
lf you can put up being denied your roots, your humanity...
then by all means, go back. But remember this much
You won't be able to live with dignity...
you won't be allowed to die with dignity...
in the place you're going back to. The decision is yours
l'll stay here
With you
We want justice!
Down with non-violence!
Kill the dogs!
l owe you this one
A word of advice, Aman. Don't be afraid of the dark
You aren't helpless. You're like the rest of us
Every one of us, at some time or the other...
have lost our dignity, our identities, our homes. . .
in pointless quarrels and riots. What happened to us...
we won't let happen to anyone else. Be it Mussalman, be it Hindu
As of now, l won't subject you to any more tests. . .
till such time that you've been forged in steel
l shall not question you. Nor will you question me
From this day, you are Murad Khan's brother
Keep this fire buried in your heart
What about Aman? What about my brother?
He's dead. - No!
This cannot be. You must live, Aman! For my sake, for Ammi's sake
You can't die for these opportunists! You must come with me
No one can stop you, Aman! Come on!
You're getting carried away by emotion. l cannot go
lf you won't, then l'm going straight to the police!
l'll expose your entire group. - The police cannot find us
Aman, don't challenge me. Before l set out...
l swore l'd take you home if you were alive
You're coming with me! Now! - Try to understand, Apa
l cannot return
You will come. Now! Let's see who stops me
Come Aman!
Try to understand, Apa. - Come on!
The debt has been repaid. Let him go
Coming
Allah is merciful!
A million thanks be to Allah!
Where have you been?
Didn't you even remember me?
You should've called me over
Forgive me, Ammi
Who would've stopped you from going anywhere?
Forgive me
First, promise never to leave me. Not until Fiza is married
Not until l'm dead and buried, you will go anywhere
l won't
ls that a promise?
You've grown up!
Allah be praised! You've even grown a beard
Son, you didn't even write me a letter!
How could you go to sleep without wishing your Ammi ''Shabba Khair''?
You've grown so feeble! Shall l get you something to eat?
Will you eat? - l've kept awake for so long
l want to sleep for a while. - My baby!
Such noise!
Aunt, for me too
Eat the sweets. My son has come back home
Aman, come let's play. - No, not today
Go on play. l'll watch. - Have you grown very big?
What was the need for all this, Ammi? - Need? Today's such a lucky day!
Your Ammi is so happy today!
Aman, come on
Come on Ammi, let's light crackers
Come on!
Your qualifications are fine. But l don't know...
l think l've heard your name somewhere
Are you the same Fiza Ikramullah who created that furore...
in newspapers and television about your brother?
You see, our company is world-famous. We don't want any trouble
What trouble...? - You look intelligent and practical
Attractive too
How about meeting this evening? Dinner etc... and then...
l'll send you away happy
Keep your dirty ideas to yourself
lt's so peaceful here - Sometimes l think...
wouldn't it be nice if we never grew up?
We'd still be running about scot free. We'd bunk lectures to eat paani puri
We'd still have those confused dreams, those hopes we were unsure of
And the desire to grow up very fast! - Getting too nostalgic?
All these problems begin once you've grown up
Had we never grown up, none of these problems would be
Don't you like Anirudh? - Don't know
l'm scared to ask myself
Take my advice. Marry him. Migrate to some other country
No one will ask what your religion is. Or even if you have religion at all
Everyone in this world needs support; and no greater support than love
''You are the air, the season, you do not belong to this earth''
''lf you are the clouds, why do you not rain?''
''Like a free bird you fly''
''Come home to me''
''Like the air, l do not wait''
''Even if l stop, l do not stay''
''On the flight of my wings l travel''
''l have no home''
''From my home on a tree...''
''a gust of wind has carried me...''
''like a dry leaf, the wind carries me everywhere''
''Come''
''Come to me for once''
''Let's rise above land''
''Let's step into the wind''
''Let's fly''
''Let's fly where no roads lead to''
''Where no one lives''
''Only in your eyes will l ever find such a place''
''You are the air, the season, you do not belong to this earth''
''lf you are the clouds, why do you not rain?''
''Like a free bird you fly''
''Come home to me''
''Like the air, l do not wait''
''Even if l stop, l do not stay''
''On the flight of my wings l travel''
''l have no home''
l have never been able to tell you everything
l've recorded something for you. You will understand when you hear
Take it. - No
What are you looking at Fiza?
These politicians. They're everywhere
Forget the politicians
You don't even socialize. There are good folks too. You should meet some
There's a big happening party on Saturday. Are you coming?
You go to your parties. - No harm in asking
Anyway, if you're in the mood, come over to the 1 $OOs
Where are you coming from, Apa?
What is it to you?
Haven't l the right to ask as much?
You want to know who he is, what he does?
He is my friend. Anirudh. When you had deserted us...
he was the one who stood by me
You're Aman, aren't you? - You're right
Aman, not to be angry with me. If we get to know each other...
we can be good friends
l haven't come here to learn Iessons about making friends
Just tell me why you're seeing Fiza. - My intentions are honorable
l want to marry Fiza. - Does she know it?
No
And you think you're good enough for Fiza?
Somewhat
This isn't a matter of less or more. It's a matter of my sister's life
Tell me something. What do you think would make Fiza the happiest?
For Fiza, you and Ammi are everything. l know that
You surely don't want her happiness to be taken away from her forever?
You will never see Fiza ever again
Understood?
lf this is what you want, then so be it
You win
l take back my words
Promise me only so much. You will always keep Fiza happy
You will always stand by my sister and my mother
Always
Aman, what are you up to? - Nothing Ammi
Just some of my old, useless drawings
l'm going to preserve these
l'm so worried for you. You don't even talk to me
Have you forgotten how to smile?
l'll show you how to laugh
Want me to show you how?
Friends, like everyday, we're going to laugh
But it's going be different today. You might've noticed that...
there's something unique about the way every man laughs
And when you see them laugh, the very thought of it...
makes you laugh. As with the watchman in our club who comes from Nepal
We've even named him ''Laughing-or-Crying''
''Ho sahib, l want a holiday'' That's one type of laughter
One of my friends from Punjab goes like...
Hear him laugh, and you think he's going to war
One Mr. Mehta from Gujarat. When he laughs...
You can visualize the ''Garba Dance'' of Gujarat from the way he laughs
And this Maharashtrian gentleman does it this way...
He has chewing tobacco in his mouth. But he's also laughing
Busy with his tobacco. But he still laughs
There's my friend Subramanyam from Madras
You got to stuff something in his mouth to stop him from laughing
So l tell you my friends, Iaugh your hearts out
Laugh like they do it in Punjab
Like the ones from Madras
Laughing is very profitable
The world has nothing, if not laughter
Keep laughing, and laughing and laughing
This ''Ha-Ha Hee-Hee Hoo-Hoo'' Club is something special about this city
Go and enjoy yourself, while l shop. - What will l do there alone?
l have to go to the market, son
We don't charge you money to laugh
So l was telling you about people. Take our film stars
Take Shah Rukh Khan
He gives you a miserly laugh
He laughed yesterday. It's coming out now
Anil Kapoor...
like a toothpaste ad. It's all individual style
Govinda goes...
You can count his teeth, while he's laughing his heart out
There are so many types. Like Amrish Puri
ln a jungle, he could send wild animals on a stampede
And babies would refuse to be born unless he stops laughing
The world-famous Bill Clinton laughs!
As if he's doing the world a favor!
Smiley, whom did you ask before setting up shop here?
Get out of here!
Enough of it. Get lost
Stop it! Don't the two of you find anything to do but fight?
You...? Where the hell are you from? - Want to get bashed up?
Please! We're getting out of here. We didn't come here to quarrel
Staring hard, are you? - You live off your sister
And you talk sense into us?
l won't spare you! - We won't!
We know! You killed before you ran away
Run!
The wound is deep. Keep dressing it
Salim this is Aman. l told you about him
The one who used to pester you? Why were you after my wife?
Had l not pestered her, would she have married you? She would've married me
That's the point. But where have you been? You didn't come for the wedding
l... couldn't make it on time
Anyway, nice meeting you
The doctor is calling you
How are you, Shehnaz?
Fine
You didn't even tell before leaving
Had you even indicated...
l could've waited
Forgive me, Shehnaz. l couldn't make your dreams come true
l forgive
Why do you women have such big hearts?
Apa, Ammi, everyone has forgiven me. No one even said anything to me
l did. The day l was engaged, l prayed to Allah
l said, let Aman stand before me, Iet him see me marrying someone else
And let him ask me to forgive him. Today, my wish has been given
Shehnaz! The doctor has confirmed it! Congratulate me, mister
l'm going to become a father!
Who am l? What am l doing? l haven't anything!
l have nothing to offer to anyone. What aspirations l had...
circumstance has taken from me. l'm a burden on Ammi and Apa. They put up...
with me because they love me. l'm not worthy of their love
l'm living a lie! If Ammi gets to know the truth, what will she go through?
People look away even if l go seeking a small-time job
l have nothing to do with caste, creed and religion
All l care for is that advice Murad Khan gave me
l will not be helpless
The injustice l have suffered, l won't let anyone suffer
Anonymity was a better identity. l'm going back
Salaam aleikum
Who told you l'm here? - No one
l thought like other years, you'd come to Bombay this time too
Why have you come?
l made a mistake, leaving without informing you
The mistake was ours. We took in someone like you. A hero
What do you want?
You were right. Let alone live with dignity...
one can't even die a dignified death here
Really?
What do you want?
l...
l want in again. - Not that mistake again! l won't!
You've made a joke out of this! Is this a game of cricket?
To walk in and out of teams as you please?
Joke!
Why are you still alive? Why? Because you protected Murad Khan
Only because of that. That mistake, again? No!
l'm willing to do anything! l feel stifled here!
l don't know where to go, what to do!
Keep it. Whoever you have at home, your mother, your sister...
give them a security for life
But this time, you aren't going to look back
Go
Gitanjali, listen...
l couldn't refuse Gitanjali. - Did she bully you into this outfit?
l know Gitanjali only too well
l also know that she must be flirting with someone at the entrance
Before she gets back in, Iet's go and dance!
How long will you go on saying no? l'm fed up! You only care for Aman
But l care for you. As of now, you're uptight
l'm fine the way l am
Can't you even have a little bit of fun like the other girls?
You call this fun?
Yery well. If you want to have fun, just watch on
''lf l start misbehaving,
''what will happen to you?''
''Your houses are of glass. What if were to l throw a stone?''
''l'll look into eyes''
''l'll set hearts aflutter''
''l'm going to make you swoon''
''So what if you mind it?''
''l'm going to dance even if my dancing bells fall off''
''l'll look into eyes''
''l'll set hearts aflutter''
''l'm going to make you swoon''
''So what if you mind it?''
''l'm going to dance even if my dancing bells fall off''
''l was held up''
''That's why l'm late''
''But l've brought you a gift, with love''
''l was held up''
''That's why l'm late''
''But l've brought you a gift, with love''
''Hearts are made of glass''
''So what if it's broken?''
''l'm going to dance even if my dancing bells fall off''
''At every step in life...''
''lurks deceit''
''Not on others...''
''l have faith in myself''
''At every step in life...''
''lurks deceit''
''Not on others...''
''l have faith in myself''
''So what if you mind it?''
''l'm going to dance even if my dancing bells fall off''
So are you happy, Mr. Anirudh?
Fiza is fine the way she is
What do you keep brooding over?
lf you want to bide time, take up a job
l'd rather that you completed your education
For nothing, you've wasted all these years
l've wasted nothing. You haven't understood me ever, Apa
Maybe you won't, ever. All l want to say is, l'm not useless
l have something, l have a goal
l understand everything. l know what's in your heart
l won't let you return, Aman
lf you want to usher in a revolution, you must know the sorrows of people
Be one with them. - l don't want to argue with you, Apa
Why do you pick on me? - Because in you l want to see...
the Aman who used to be my brother. Have you ever thought...
how much you've changed? - Not l. Circumstance has changed
Remember Apa? We used to play here when we were kids, we used to fight
lt was so much fun
Apa, l have only one request. Don't say no
What do you want?
What is this?
Open it. See it
Can a brother not do as much for his sister?
But...
Let the family jewels stay where they should
For the sake of the childhood we spent together...
for the sake of our memories, don't refuse this
But Aman...
For once, embrace me, Apa
l owe you this explanation
Someday or the other, we have to tell Ammi
What goes on in whispers? - Nothing Ammi
Never mind. Someday or the other, l'll get to know
Keeping secrets is fun!
Shall l let you in on my secret?
Even l'm up to a sly plot or two
Sometimes, l steal Ulfat Jaan's lipstick and powder
To keep myself amused, l let my nose ring switch sides
Sometimes, l cook a sweet for myself on the sly
There you are, idling! Hurry up! Switch the TY on
There's something on cable TY. - God help us! Put it on
You fool! You made me so apprehensive! -Apprehension being, l'd miss the song
You haven't changed a bit
Go on, Ammi
Take him. - What are you doing?
Let me go!
Stop! l say stop! Where are you taking him?
He killed during the riots. Three people
Aman, don't worry. l'll bring a lawyer
Get out!
You act smart with us? You burnt my bike!
Please, let him go! - See? That's how we fix you
Hot-blooded, are you? - Get out!
ln there, they'll chill you down. - Get out!
Hey hag! Bid your son goodbye. - Go away!
Shove it. - Hey raspberry
Leave me! - l'm still here for you. Why worry?
Give it to us!
You dare say that to my sister?!
My sister!
You dogs!
Let go Aman!
Aman, let go!
You dare make a pass at my sister?!
Sahib! Save me!
Ammi, eat something. You didn't eat anything last night. You'll fall ill
l've talked to the lawyer. Considering the crime records of the victims...
Aman will not get a heavy sentence. They were hoodlums. Into rioting
l'm the one who should get the biggest punishment
l couldn't do anything for my children
My son, my Aman...
was taken away before my eyes, and l just looked on...
l couldn't do a thing
My child, it's time to part
Cover her face
''Don't take that coffin away yet''
''lt's my friend''
''Don't take that coffin away yet''
''lt's my friend''
''The soil is still warm''
''The body is still fresh''
''The soil is still warm''
''The body is still fresh''
''Don't take that coffin away yet''
''lt's my friend''
''Wake her up''
''Let me bid her goodbye''
''What farewell is this?''
''What parting this is?''
''There is still sorrow left ... yet to be lived''
''Do not take that coffin away yet''
''lt's my friend''
''The soil is still warm''
''She is still fresh''
My dear Apa...
For an eternity, Fiza (The Seasons) has passed, will always pass
But you mustn't change. Ever. This is a vicious world, Apa
lt will force you to change. But you mustn't, Apa
Ammi hasn't gone away, Apa. She is with us
She will always be with us. l can still hear her laugh
Knowingly and unknowingly, l have hurt you deeply
lf you can, forget me. And start life anew
Don't make digs at me, Mr. Syed. All thanks to you...
my nephew Nathu is the union leader
l'm not making digs at you. l'm just wondering...
here l am, and there you are in five star hotels!
lt's a foregone conclusion. We're forming the government
We have the majority. The other parties are also with us
lf our Mussalman brothers join us, our secular picture will be complete
Do you know how many Mussalmans l have behind me?
As of now, in this state, you are...
the most influential among Mussalman leaders
One word from you, and 1 .5, maybe 2 million would give their lives
You are very wise
Do you know the cost of a support base of 1 .5 or 2 million people?
Whatever you say. l'll convince my party
You aren't about to offer me chief ministership
How about Home Ministry? - l've given the Home Ministry...
The opposition is calling me persistently. They say...
l accept
Let's shake hands. - Let's embrace!
We'll organize a grand puja in our temples on Idd day
Allah be praised! - Glory to Lord Ram!
Our alliance might lead to riots. - Much to our benefit
Why do we change our plan?
Will the elections wait for us?
lf the enemy comes to power, all we can do is cry
For us, it's important to deliver the first strike
This alliance in government is a sham!
ln this country, there's only truth. This! Only this!
For every government, power flows from the barrel of the gun
When this speaks, everyone hears. - But to do this. . .
we need permission from headquarters. - Not permission. Orders!
And l give the orders. You have any problems?
Who will do it? - l know
Are you thinking about the boy... - Yes, he's new recruit
He isn't trained for the mission. He hasn't done any big jobs
All he has done are petty jobs
But not everyone has what he has in him
He has a strange madness in him. - It's a big risk!
Get him ready
Now you will be forged in steel. This is your biggest test
What happened to you is about to happen once again
You can stop another riot from happening. Get ready Aman
Else, others like you will become the living dead
Do it Aman. Don't let that terrible thing happen again
Do you understand?
ldd greetings, Apa. - My greetings to you
Apa, l saw Aman
Where? Where is he?
This morning l went to see my doctor in Mahim
l saw him near the Sun Temple. - What are you saying?
l could never be mistaken about seeing him. He was there
Why didn't you talk to him? Why didn't you stop him?
My husband was with me
Take care of yourself. Please
Who are you?
No one. - What's ''no one''?
Everyone has a name, hasn't he?
What's your name? - Uday
Uday, now go home
Not a hope, sir! They died on the spot
Listen... what happened?
One minute...
Over?
Done
Finish him off
Drop the gun, Aman
l did it once
Drop it, Aman - What good will it be?
Someone else will pick it up.
Such hatred, Aman? Forget all this. There's still time
Why this hatred? - This isn't hatred
lt's protest against hatred. And in this Jehad martyrs will fall
For Truth's sake, will Jehad be waged
And the truth is that we belong to this country. We always will
ls it said in the Ouran Sharief that one must shed blood to prove a point?
And you refuse to accept that? What kind of a Mujahid are you?
Change your ways, Aman. There's still time
ln the end, justice will prevail. - What is justice, Apa?
That which happened to me 6 years ago? Was it just?
People like Singh and Syed ... are they right?
They can change everything for the better. But that they won't do
They have the power. But they use it to set us against each other
So that they can wield their influence and retain their seats of power
lf these men are right, l have done no sin
l am pure
l never fancied this weapon
Like the lines of destiny on my palm, it was thrust into my hands by fate
How did all this happen, Aman?
Our happiness has been taken away from us
Or was it the evil eye that saw us laugh together?
Time was when you'd love me even when you scolded me
That love is still there
Yes
Those Sundays, when we'd buy sour berries worth half a buck
You'd massage my head with hair oil
And you wouldn't tell Ammi what mischief l was up to
Else, she would've slapped you hard
Apa, go now
Go! - No!
The police is taking up positions. - l'm not leaving you!
Go on, Apa!
Leave!
Give me the gun
Give me that gun, Aman
Give it to me!
All right. But on one condition
What condition?
Look at me, Apa
Look at your Aman
ln a while, the police will shoot me. Or else, it'll be the gallows for me
lt's a skit for free. People will enjoy watching me die
Little do they know that in the bylanes of this city...
l died one night, a long time ago
You won't let them take me, Apa
Promise me
l have no pride in my being
At least, let me die in dignity
Take this Apa
l have no way out, Apa
Take the gun, Apa
Take the gun
Take it
Ammi must be so lonely
l want to go to Ammi
l want to lie with my head on her lap
l'm worn out
Bid me goodbye
Bid me goodbye, Apa
''There is no God but Allah''
''Mohammed is The Prophet of Allah''
Unto Allah l commend you, Aman
Children, get home early. l keep worrying
Allah, grant me courage
Any news of my son, madam?
No